Losing My Skill for Fear

Hey In There,

You’ve practiced being afraid for so long, you’ve become good at it. So good that it’s easy. So easy, that you don’t even know you’re doing it and the only evidence you have for your fear is that you don’t know if you’re right or wrong. You’re afraid of being alone and afraid of finding the right person. You’re afraid of changing and afraid if you do something different, you will have abandoned something meaningful. You’re afraid lying and also afraid of being so honest that you’ll believe what you‘ve rejected for so long --- the obvious. You’re afraid of loving completely and totally unsure if your love is sufficient. You’re afraid of being wrong and you’re afraid if you’re right you’ll lose everything you value. You’re afraid of questioning God and afraid to admit your ignorance. You’re afraid of living effortlessly and afraid of working so hard you’ll miss your life. You’re afraid to admit you don’t have it all and afraid to admit you don’t need it all. You’ve actually believed you can go or be somewhere ---ANYWHERE and find God missing so that just makes you afraid to show up.

The evidence for this is clear whenever you are not present. Fear perhaps is not just simply false evidence appearing real. It is proof you have projected and tried to live somewhere in your future. It doesn’t matter how near or distant that future is. Any attempt to excavate yourself from the present moment is proof that you are good at being afraid. It doesn’t matter that you are planning your future. That’s easily a noble excuse just to be distracted and miss who you are and the beauty of what is being. The most efficient way to plan for the future is in the present moment. So rather than focusing on any other moment, why not just optimize being in this one and the necessary resources will find you in each moment just as they have in this one. Trust it. Trust this and fear not.

Fear is senseless…

If you fear death and your death is imminent, what profit is it for you to fear the inevitable? Would that not just cause you to waste the moments of your viability? Your viability, by the way, is irrefutably immanent. You ARE alive NOW. So could death really be upon you? Really? And if you’re afraid of someone other than yourself dying, it’s because you are afraid of missing what you think you COULD have. You can’t lose a past that’s non-negotiable and changeless. All your memories are secure even if you forget them and any future moment can only live in a fantasy. Pay attention NOW and love living.

What was the last thing you were afraid of that destroyed you?

The answer? NOTHING!

Have you become so good at being afraid that you have failed to see your success in simply remaining… being… lasting… continuing… expanding… evolving?

You could just as easily practice being fearless. You do this by just simply loving. You do this by accepting. You do this by choosing not to argue with truth. The truth is here to serve you---serve us. It’s been said, “You will know the truth and the truth will make you free.” If this is true then embracing any truth is the pathway to freedom. Do you think you could not use your fear to judge the truth? Any attempt to judge the truth is an attempt to evidence or give proof to the lie. There is no lie which has proof to it. There is no truth which has the power to harm you. All truth has the power to free you if you “know” it. And if you know something other than the truth, it’s just simply a lie. Don’t believe it; don’t practice the lie anymore. Lose your skill for fear.

The truth is real.
The lie is false.
What is real exists-
What is false does not exist.
The lie does not exist.
Only Truth

Working You Out,

Marquis

The Lover

It’s the one who helps you believe what you didn’t believe before

Even if that means you rethinking you

It’s the one who, though you keep breathing, continues to take your breath away

It’s the one who, without disturbance, wakes you while you sleep

The Dream…

It’s the one who caused you to forget your beginning while giving you forever

You can let it all go…

And just Be

It’s the one who, without words, convinced you of your beauty

They didn’t hide their eyes

They didn’t believe the lies – not even yours

It’s the one who gives you the gift of time and doesn’t make you wait

It’s the one who ‘watches’ you change

Like time, it’s a REVOLution –

The Lover in EVOLution

It’s the One…

Whoever, Whenever, Wherever

It’s the One

However Many

It’s the One

Shaddows

To be hidden in the shadow does not erase my existence. If the shadow is there, it will last until a light is cast in a different direction so that the shadow remains but covers me not. Would you shine your light and bring me out of hiding? Would you kiss the frog? Would you...

Love Anyway

Simply Because I Can

“Withhold not good from who it is due when it is in the power of your hand to do it.”

A wisdom charm and an ancient Hebrew proverb – I like looking at it. Meditating on it. It speaks to me; it makes me think - What makes something good? To who is it owed? Do I owe it!?! Do I have the power to deliver it? Why should I do anything for anybody? Makes me wonder why anybody does anything for anybody.

The one who knows him or herself to be powerful is fully invested in sharing their power. It is only those who believe themselves to be weak, who cultivate weakness or allow it to remain.

I was born into this world as a child who could do nothing for himself. Someone changed my diaper and dirtied their hands. I had done nothing to deserve such favor but they had the power to not leave me dirty. I became hungry. I did nothing to work for my bread and yet they fed me with their power to take away my pangs. Somewhere along the way, I decided I did not want to do what was done for me. I did not want to simply give my good away unless it was to someone who had delivered good to me first. In those moments I believed in my weakness. In those moments I lost my way. My first experience in this world taught me to give where goodness was needed and not necessarily where it was afforded.

I listen for those who cannot hear without me. I write the songs for those who cannot feel the music without me. I write the truth for those who could not identify the lie without me. I take away pain for those who can’t find their comfort without me never wanting to count man’s sins or weakness against them.

Those who have lost their way are overdue for direction. The person lost in grief is overdue for joy. The person lost in confusion is overdue for understanding. The person befuddled in conflict is overdue for peace. Those who are overwhelmed with despair are overdue for hope. Those who carry the burden of their fellow man are always due help to lighten the load.

Those who are lost simply need a Savior. The people we save are not always the people we owe but all of them are due it. There are those who cannot afford my help but what I cannot afford is to leave them without it. Love Anyway

From My Heart

Join Me,

Marquis

Brand New

You have given yourself permission to live through this moment and to continue into the next. You have done this. This moment is peculiar; it is extraordinary; it is beyond fathoming, but what makes it quintessentially intriguing is it has never been before.

This moment is Brand New.

You made it so.

All moments are exactly this way. You have never been here before and there is no sense in requiring yourself to live in the past or relishing in the pain or JOY of a past event. You have not lived through a pain that remained beyond your power to keep it going. Neither have you lavished in a joy which paralyzes the ability to exceed it. Freedom lives beyond your grandest idea and Love lives beyond comparison.

Be Brand New; Take no prisoners; Hold no one captive to your known ideas which are only evidenced in your past.

If you have a Lover

Call it done and start it Over

If you have a Friend

Let them go and begin Again

If you have a Life

Die already and be Born Again

More Than I Ever Did

Look at the face of someone you love

Experience with them the joy that lives through them in your absence.

Let love happen knowing Love is bigger than your grandest ideas

Love offers more than your awareness can allow.

Limit not the one you Love to be constricted by your ignorance.

Learn from Love.

Live beyond your rules and let Life happen

Breathe Again then Love Again

Never make it like it was

Learn what is becoming

I love you more than I ever did

Less than I ever will

God..? Open..? Relationship?

The other day I went on a date with God and let me tell you… It was absolutely amazing. I found out things about myself; there were secrets and unkown treasures inside of me just waiting to be exposed. I began to see how beautiful and wonderful I am. God gave me this overwhelming experience and Xchange of Love. Everyone should know this and really, it was beyond words.

Later on as I was reflecting on what a wonderful Xchange I had, I thought I might give God a call to catch up. Love answered and said this to me.

“I had a wonderful time with you as well. Did you know that I was even able to see Myself and My Soul in you? It’s like you are a ‘Soul-jar’ for Love. However, I can’t spend much more time with you because I have some who are very dear to me who have become very concerned that I might run out of Love if I share too much with you. So they have given me some laws to abide by to guarantee that I not be diminished and also, so that I can be God for them almost exclusively… …So sorry!”

Is it really such a far-fetched idea to date God? I remember hearing about those who have a date or an appointment with destiny. As such, I have an appointment with Love and even an appointment with Life. Where ever there is Love, I want to be there and where I AM, Love should meet me. It would be my desire to have an abiding appointment with Love and Life. It serves as a much more comforting notion than imagining a Life without Love or a Love without Life.

So what is Love? Is Love personified? Someone in our ancestry suggested, “God is Love.” Is this personification of Love the writer’s way of saying, “God is always Godding, and Love is never exhausted or diminished by Loving? Since we have defined and seen Love in so many ways it would seem something as simple as limitless love would not continue to escape us. There simply is no end to Love; it is never exhausted and there simply is no end to God. God is everywhere and can be seen in all things but only by those who have eyes to see. Those of us who don’t have eyes to see can see and perceive only limitedness.

Because we have been conditioned and domesticated to believe that all things have their limits, we’ve accepted that Love is finite and can therefore be depleted. This is why we have the tendency toward possessiveness and we seek then to possess God, possess Love and possess people. We need not possess Love to have Love. Having Love is all that is necessary to extend Love. Possessing Love is what gives the inclination to withhold it and we only withhold what we want to keep for ourselves. So we make rules and laws to guarantee that no one gets it unless we qualify them. If this were Love’s desire, there would be no BeLoved.
It’s not been Love’s desire but it has been the inclination of the many. And if we continue in this current trajectory of possessiveness, Love will be hidden and, we’ll all continue waiting for it. It seems from the looks of our current plight of frustration, anxiety, fear, anger and even depletion, there are yet quite a few of us laying in wait. We do expect and want Love to be limitless when it finds us; we just don’t really anticipate that limitless Love will process through us.

Who, among us would like to stand in the presence of anyone who desires to withhold Love from us? Love is the unconditioned response to the presence of Life to activate goodness. In other words – love always presents itself to all of what is good. And if things seem other than good, Love loves Anyway. It makes it Good.

You are God and you are Love. You may not be all of what Love is but all of what you are can be what Love is. You may not be all of what God is but all of what you are can be what God is. If I am only what God is, then I will be only what Love is. The only other option is that I embrace insanity and become beside myself and dis-appoint myself and lose my date with Love. So if you love only one, you will not love the many. If you love the many, you now know you can love all. If you love all ones, you will Love alone (all-one) and you will Love only and you will Love Anyway.